In June we moved ahead with the kitchen and living room space as well as the bedroom (gym?) on the first floor. The floor was mended and given a new finish, which we redid twice. Striving for a top result made us do that. 😉 We met a wonderful man who made stone everythings and looked at what could be our future kitchen worktop. Also, we took the roof down since it was molded. We washed all the tiles and so they could be put back up again. Two new window shades were made on the top floor. We redid the entrance but realized we did not like the roof of it, so we had to put that back on the to-do-list for later adjustment. The municipality denied us twice to paint the house a light grey (that would appear white) and said we must stick with the traditional red, and so we decided to paint everything red. From the chimney to the foundation of the house. 🙂
The walls are a marvelous paint color which I adore. NCS S1002-Y, meaning it is a yellow with a dash of black pigment. When yellow pigment is mixed with black pigment it turns greenish, but as this is a south facing room the direct sunlight makes you perceive the color as warmer.
The grey is NCS S1502-Y50R. Love it. The skirting boards will be an exquisite NCS S3505-Y50R. This is a north facing room, and so it is darker and mainly lit by reflected (and not direct) sunlight. Reds tend to be perceived as stronger in color tone, cooler and darker in north facing rooms. The yellow in this paint color mix also tends to appear more towards blue.
In July our builders went on vacation and so the work was put on pause for five weeks. In the meantime we cleaned up around the house. The scaffolding was also taken down around this time.
It has been a year since I started posting. To have a blog had been floating in the back of my mind for years. Previously I have had a blog or two but not been able to keep them afloat, to have continuity and not abandon what I started. This experience contributed to my recent hesitation about going ahead with a blog this time around.
As with many other things, such as art and design, it is about what we need ourselves. We need to express ourselves and so we create, or we make a product we need, that we want to use and so we create. It might sound grand, but this is the reason I started my blog. I need a reminder of what I make, how I spend my day to day life, where I travel and a library of recipes. I tend to forget all this and so I begin to lose my sense of self. My blog holds me, it reminds me of who I am, not all of it but parts.
The reason I wanted to share the content I create is the hope that meanwhile it helps me it could help someone else too. When I have asked my friends for feedback on my texts their responses have been “This text really resonated with me, it’s beautiful” and “The text truly motivated me to workout!”. It made me happy and relieved to hear and realize that I wasn’t delusional. 😉
Things are changing in a new way for me. Recently I have had more continuity in my life, which I have not had before and to have exchanged that for chaos and turmoil might be why I am able to stick with it this time. 😉 When chaos and turmoil come again, because they will (this is life), I hope I am more stable and grounded in myself so that I can keep my calm and keep on Doing all that I want to be Doing, to keep afloat no matter what storm comes and then enjoy smooth sailing when that is the case.
To begin with I was hesitant regarding getting a boat. But as shown below I was convinced. 😉 It is a very special feeling to simply undo the knot and then be out in the archipelago in less than ten minutes. We have been to small islands to have picnic and read, and we have gone to restaurants you cannot reach by car. To be out on the water, to enjoy nature together with other people, to see sailboats pass by and know “There they are in their experience” has been wonderful. That joy and that feeling of flexibility to be transported elsewhere within a short moment is enough to make it worth it.
Hur mycket kan jag säga och vad kan jag säga innan jag går över gränsen till att det blir för nära, blottande på fel sätt, röjande, så att jag står kvar utan hud, genomskinlig?
Balanserar ständigt mellan det personliga och privata, att vara genuin, förbli genuin men ändå bibehålla tryggt avstånd. Att möta någons blick och se den i ögonen, se den, och sedan gå.
Jag blir så lätt stressad, av andras blickar på mig, av mina egna ögon som ser mig genom dem och undrar “Vad ser de nu?”. Vet att jag inte kan rå över vilken vinkel de ser mig från och vet att de aldrig ser hela mig i ett ögonkast, men vet de själva om det?
Vill ändå ta plats. Vill trotsa henne som säger “Inte bra nog” och “Du får inte”. Vill visa henne att “Det är jag visst det”. Att tycka om mig själv skulle vara den största revolten.
How much can I say and what can I say before I cross the line over to too close, revealing in the wrong way, exposing, so that I am left bare, transparent?
Constantly balancing personal and private, to be genuine, remain genuine but still maintain safe distance. To meet someone’s look and see that person in the eye, to fully see that person, and then leave.
I am so easily stressed, by other’s glances at me, by my own eyes seeing me through them wondering “What do they see now?” and to know that I cannot dictate how they see me and know that they never see entire me in one glance, but do they know that themselves?
Despite that I want to take up space, take place. Want to defy her, she who says “Not good enough” and “You are not allowed”. Want to show her that “I am that anyway”. To like myself would be the greatest rebellion.
This was a year ago. It is strange to look at these pictures now as I flinch at hugs and people standing too close to each other or being in closed spaces. Luckily, as mentioned, this was a year ago. 🙂
This recipe makes about five pancakes for one hungry person.
1/2 dl rolled oats or flour of choice
1/2 tsp baking powder
A pinch of salt
Coconut oil for frying
Put all ingredients in a blender. Blend until smooth.
In a skillet put on medium heat and a dollop of coconut oil. When the pan is warm and the coconut oil melted pour in a scoop of the mixture. Be patient. Turn the pancake over once it loosens from the pan’s surface.
If you have too high heat it will get burnt before it get cooked enough and pancake will still be runny up top. 🙂 You know this already.