A few years ago I went through a rough phase. Nothing was stable or safe. This made me put on a tunnel vision, focus on the details in whatever I Did, made, be completely absorbed and shut everything else out, because what was happening around me at the time was too much to handle. I […]
When the rest of the house was still a building site, but work paused for a month during the summer, we put in furniture. The living room and kitchen space were not done yet as you can see below. The reason why we did this was partly because we needed somewhere to live during the […]
I had to get away, to a place that was not mine but that I could lend for a few days. Away to get closer, move to reach stillness. How ironic life can be at times. In the eye of the storm it is quiet. The silence speaks in a different tone in places that […]
Some days it just doesn’t click. I do not know why. Maybe it is when I am not fully present or maybe not in tune, could that be the same thing? Some days it doesn’t reach even half the way, it is not close to getting there. When life suddenly becomes challenging, when it is […]
It has been a year since I started posting. To have a blog had been floating in the back of my mind for years. Previously I have had a blog or two but not been able to keep them afloat, to have continuity and not abandon what I started. This experience contributed to my recent […]
Hur mycket kan jag säga och vad kan jag säga innan jag går över gränsen till att det blir för nära, blottande på fel sätt, röjande, så att jag står kvar utan hud, genomskinlig? Balanserar ständigt mellan det personliga och privata, att vara genuin, förbli genuin men ändå bibehålla tryggt avstånd. Att möta någons blick […]
They argue with each other, the strict and the soft side, the obligations and the emotions collide. At present time the soft is only a whisper. But I can feel it changing, the weight shifting. The soft approaching, getting closer, and the strict finally backing down. Either or, all or nothing, tunnel vision and laser […]
There are so many expressions that I adore and that I come back to again and again. Many times I feel guilty for letting one go for a while to be able to dive into the other. Writing is my first love, yet I don’t share the vast majority of what I write. This is […]
Kan jag få lägga min kind mot orden? Kan jag få vila mellan raderna? Kan jag få sova i den här boken innan den kommer till sitt slut? Kan jag få vara ostörd för en stund, utan hot och utan tvivel? Kan jag kalla en plats för min, eller är den också tillfälligt till låns […]
Sharing endless conversations over coffee and rye bread. Never done. Nothing else is needed. In these moments I want time to stop, I don’t want to have the clock ticking in the back of my head or the to-do-list that creeps closer. I just want to be here, in the cocoon we create together in […]