I took my time. I took the time that is rightfully mine, and I did what I felt like doing. I was not supposed to be somewhere else. There was not something else I should be doing instead of this. I was here, I was present and curious. I peeked around corners, I went as […]
Ingredients 1 yellow onion 1 carrot 1×2 cm piece of ginger 1/2 small head of cabbage 4 mushrooms 4 cloves of garlic 4 scallions Black pepper Vegetable oil to fry in About 200 grams of noodles Ingredients for sauce 4 tbsp Worcestershire sauce 1 tbsp oyster sauce 1 tbsp ketchup 2 tsp soy sauce 2 […]
Jag brukar minnas men nu glömmer jag. Det är så mycket jag inte kommer ihåg. Jag påminns om att jag glömmer. Jag minns inte vad det är jag har glömt. // I use to remember but now I forget. There is so much that I have forgotten. I am reminded that I forget. I do […]
Recalling that feeling of being in motion, having a mission that pulls you forward, that pulse it gives you, that rhythm in your step, and direction. The excitement of things to come, the adventure ahead, and as you move the energy increase. The idea is almost sweeter than reality. All that has been dreamed up […]
Time is weird. Age is too. I just realized today is my birthday. The number insinuates that I am old, but I do not feel old at all. Maybe my idea of time and age is incorrect. Maybe my expectations on what my years should have included differ from reality so much I do not […]
There are so many people who tell me again and again “Take care of yourself now” and I nod, not sure what they mean. To not harm me and to be able to say “Stop” to that voice, that part of me who believes I am a bad person and deserves the pain or does […]
So tired, so heavy. Headache and healing. I wonder what is truly restorative. Just before dreaming, in the absence of distraction, arrives the unsettling feeling, the worry and the anxiety, the feeling of not being safe, that everything can be and will be taken away from me. It was never mine, and it is my […]
The sun is setting again, golden. Another day of attempts. To get closer, to secretly squeeze more out of the minutes without being noticed. Because none of us can admit that we are running out of time. We wish we would have gotten here earlier. But we could not. We were not. And this is […]
The dishwasher is full of clean dishes, and the kitchen worktop is covered with dirty dishes. None of which seem to move. Dirty clothes lay around the house, and clean clothes lay in bags still. The piles are building up. We forget to eat or we cannot because the hurry and worry make us sick […]